Its been one of those sort of weeks that wear you down mentally and spiritually. One of those weeks that sets you up for doing something dumb – do you know what I mean? Frustration at work, the ‘joys’ of parenthood, the fast pace of life in general. So much that last night my oldest son and I are still working away on getting the documentation complete for his science fair project ( YES! SCIENCE FAIR!), and emails are streaming around from work that well frankly put are making me want to put my fist through the wall.
It was in the midst of this that I sat down and took a look at some pictures from Haiti, courtesy of the Sacramento Bee and Boston.com. While reviewing those, I thought about one email I had received earlier in the day. I email containing a link from the Chattanooga.com about a co worker of mine who was tragically killed by a drunk driver two days before Christmas. (All of these links are tales of heart breaking events)
Its funny how God works. Right when I think things aren’t going my way and I should start to take control of these situations – boom, reminders hit you in the fore head. I am really being a servant? Am I really considering others? Am I being humble enough? Am I really being humble AT ALL?
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise. (Psalm 51 NIV)
So even though Alex and I were up late finishing up the science project, and even with meetings being schedule at unreasonable times, and even with expectations and life events that don’t seem fair, can I still realize the blessings that I have. Can I still see how good life is? Can I still come to God with humility and contriteness and lay myself before him and say “I will do whatever you ask”? We are all blessed – beyond compare. Let us stay humble and broken, and let us keep the heart of a servant.
I have a strange feeling I will be surprised how different the day will be if I approach today with a servant’s heart rather than the attitude I had last night – one of anger and frustration and pride. Its interesting how God’s Way puts is in a place of joy, and our way
puts us in a danger zone.!
So break your heart, humble yourself and live today. Take advantage of what you have been given.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Psalm 51 (NIV)